Q: Why is Maeve not getting anything done today?
A: She is:
1. Nervous
2. Distracted
3. Sick
4. All of the above.
Nervous: Have not yet heard back on job counter-offer. Feel like I am existing in a state of suspension between two other distinct states, like the liquified caterpillar in a butterfly chrysalis. I’m just goop. I’d like to know, thankyouverymuch Universe, if I am to remain a caterpillar for a while yet or do the butterfly thing. Being undifferentiated goop is a bit tiring.
Distracted: The Trader’s Ex was informed about me on Friday. I met the Trader-Tot on Saturday. Trader-Tot met PP and they played well together. Now we can figure out where we want to go. Which is a bit like being Alice in the hall of doors: so many doors, so many of them too big or too small right now, should I eat the cake or drink the cordial? I didn’t leave the key on the glass table, did I?
Sick: I have a cold. Allergies are driving me bonkers. I want to bury myself in my duvet and sleep for a week, except that I’m too wired from 1 and 2 to be able to sleep, and too congested from 3 to be able to breathe.
It’s a very curious feeling, having a couple of big things lurch forward at the same time but not in any definitive way. I am butterfly goop in a hall of doors. With a cold.
For a glob of undifferentiated goop, you sure have a way with words
Goop is good. It means you’re available to become whatever is required of you. You’re not stuck to form, location or what not.
Hope you feel better soon and good luck with the waiting game!
It also means I can attack someone all horror-movie-like if they don’t get back to me SOON because I am getting very tired of waiting.